Are You Ready For the FASTLIFE?

Tomorrow. Tomorrow is the day!

Even since Joe started recording the album, I've been beyond excited. I've spent four months of my life dreaming of what it will sound like. What I'll feel. How popular it will be. All the dreaming, and wondering is about to end, and be replaced with memories.

I've heard about half the album, and it is INSANE. It's so different from anything I would've expected. It's different then what anyone would expect. Nick's solo project was very predictable. (At least for me.) He's definitely a bluesy, soul kind of guy, so it fit nicely.

Joe's is so different. He said it used to have a Michael Buble sound to it, but it evolved over time, and turned into a darker, club, dance sort of record. But it also has a couple ballads that break your heart, and make it ache. (Sorry and Lighthouse)

Fastlife is the title, and it makes me want to just party until two in the morning. I LOVE the intro, it's like GENIUS. It definitely fits with the song perfectly.

Make sure to buy the album. It's really, really good. I'm just so proud of Joe and all he's accomplished this past year. He's going to make me even more proud in the coming while as he produces, and stars in a movie he helped write.

This journey is almost over. the album will be in my hands. Thanks for reading all these Joe rambles. I promise they'll be a little less frequent.

I don't really know what you're thinkin'
But I know what we're drinkin'
Let me put your night in drive
Calkwalkin' on the runway
Trippin' down on the highway
Comin' home is only right
Can't see nothin' but blurred lines!
Actin' like it's your first time!
Girl I'm done with these games,
and you need to get in my lane
Pushin' into the red line

Girl you know that you want it,
and you know that I got it!
And we know where we're goin'

http://youtu.be/9wKi1umyvXU

Buy it.

What? You're NOT Going to buy it?!

That is NOT how this is gonna go down.

Buy it.

Buy Fastlife on 10-11-11.

Oh!
You ARE gonna buy it!

Well...

 Awesome.

We're cool then.

-Zo

She's a Stone Cold Dream Stealer

2 more days!

The excitement is getting to me. My dreams all this week have involved Joe Jonas is some way or another. Friday night I dreamt Joe took me on a date and started singing 'Idiot Boyfriend' by Jimmy Fallon to me. (He has sang it that night when he performed with the Roots on Late Night with Jimmy Fallon) and last night, I dreamt that Joe came to my door, grabbed my hand, and lead me out to the desert by my house. He began to sing Make You Mine, and Lighthouse to me.

I'm definitely excited for this album.

Today's blog title is a lyric from Joe's song, Love Slayer. One of the first songs of the record I heard, and also the first one that showed us that a lot of the song on this album are there to prove he's an adult, not a teenie Disney star anymore.

Love Slayer!
Causin' nothin' but trouble babe,
and I want more of it.
Love Slayer!
Causin' nothin' but trouble babe,
and I think I love it!
She's a killer
Straight up, no feelin's
If you ain't heard about her,
She's a stone cold dream stealer.

 

Joe performing Love Slayer Live on Letterman at the Ed Sullivan Theatre

Her Kiss is Like A Rope And Chain

3 days.

 Three days until the actual release date of Fastlife. He leaked the album yesterday though, so I've heard full studio versions of songs I've heard him sing live. (I want to still be surprised on the ones I haven't heard yet.)

'Im going to tell you about a different song from the record that I've heard so far, everyday until October 11th. Sound like a plan? Cool.

Let's talk about Kleptomaniac. It is by FAR the craziest song I've ever heard. Whenever I hear it I wanna run around and dance like a psychopath (and 70% or the time I do)
 It's just crazy.  This is just a taste of the lyrics. I'm gonna make you wait until October 11th to hear the music though ;) Just buy the record! Buy $10 you'll ever spend I promise!

Oh, that girl can kill you with her smile.
She'll see you comin' from a mile.
So don't leave nothin' in your p-p-p-pocket! (P-p-p-pocket!)
Oh, her kiss is like a rope and chain,
she'll put that poison in your brain.
And there and nothin' you can do to stop it. (St-st-stop it!)

10-11-11

-Zo

4 More Days

Until the begining of a new age. Until the release of Fastlife. Maybe until a new and improved Zo. A proud Zo who walks with her head held high in the hallways. Keep posted, and definetly stay tuned for my insane fangirl explosion coming on Tuesday.

Who's Afraid Of The Dark?

This is an excerpt from a fanfiction I've been writing called Free Fallin'. I really love how the dream tunred out, so I'm going to share it with you all.

I’m running, and tripping over the front of the large, 1800’s style dress I’m wearing. I come to a large lake. There’s a small rowboat tied top a rock. I decide that’s the best escape for now. Whatever’s after me can’t get me if I’m out in the middle of the lake.

Once I reach the center, I stop and relax. I’m safe at last. But from what? I can’t remember. A second boat appears through the fog, and sends my heart racing. I pick up the oars, but sop when I see Joe. He’s dressed in the same 1800’s like clothing I am.

“Sarah Jane.” He breathes, and smiles warmly.

“Joe?” I question.
“
What are you doing out here?”

“I’m not quite sure.” I shrug, and brush a ringlet out of my face. Joe chuckles.

“I came to tell you that I know about your mother.”

“Oh.”

“You’re going to end up just like her.” He hisses. His tone has gone from friendly to icy in an instant. I’m stunned.

“What?”

“Your mother was a chicken. A fool. She didn’t love you, and she didn’t love your father. You’re just like her. There’s no point in being with you. You’ll never love me, just like Diana never loved Christopher.”

“Liar.” I shout. “I am not my mother!”

“You look just like her. You talk just like her.”

“I don’t think like her!”

“Stop playing pretend Sarah Jane. Your life will end just like your mother’s.”

“No I won’t!”


“Goodbye Sarah Jane.” Joe shrugs, and begins to row away.

“Joe! Come back!” I screech. But he doesn’t hear me. I feel my heart break, and I begin to sob in despair. The water laps against the boat, coaxing me. “No.” I tell it. “I want no part of you. I hate you. I hate you almost was much as I hate her.”

The water ignores me too, and continues to lap against the boat. Joe’s spiteful, horrible lie echoes in my mind.
“
You mother was a chicken. A fool. She didn’t love you and she didn’t love your father.”
The water looks very inviting just then. I stand up in the boat, pick up my skirt, and leap

I'm so ready for the Fastlife

SO GO OUT AND BUY IT FOLKS! OCTOBER11TH IS THE DAY!!!

Wake Me Up When September Ends (So it can feel like fall!!!)

So I've decided to make a list of things I love about fall. It's my favorite season after all.

• Everything smells like pumpkin spice. I'm not even kidding. My whole house smells like pumpkin spice candles. It's delicious.
• Flannel shirts. ('Nuff said)
• Ugg boots.
• Driving around and looking at all the leaves changing color.
• Halloween Oreos. We all know they're just better then regular ones.
• Pumpkin pie.
• Thanksgiving

When The Party's Over, How Will I Get Home?

I have that reputation. I'm a high school cliche, in most peoples eyes, and even in my own.

I'm the girl that helps everyone with everything. When your boyfriend dumps you, my shoulder comes out of no where, and is ready to soak up the tears.

Don't understand your biology homework? Come on over to Zo's desk, and she'll explain it too ya!

I get good grades for my parents to say "My daughter's straight A."

And that's great. I love making people happy and helping them feel better, and making my parents proud. There is a downside, because the other end of the cliche is that "I'm there for everyone, but no one is there for me."

When my heart hurts, no one knows what to say. When I don't know the answer, no one else does.  When I get a B, no one cuts me any slack.

I'm not complaining. I'm just saying, where's the fairness in that? I give my everything, and get not help in return. I don't want a friggin parade or anything. I just want support when I need it too. Is that so much to ask? I don't think so. It doesn't take much energy for me to help everyone.

Today's blog title is pretty fitting, huh? It's a line from a Christina Perri song. (She's the Jar of Hearts girl) The song's called Sad Song. It fits this occasion nicely.

-Zo

STOP

“In this world it’s so easy to hate it, but you should always remember that you were chosen to be on this earth” - Joe Jonas

I saw this on tumblr, and found it way to powerful not to post here. This doesn't just here because I want the Joe hate to stop. (But don't get me wrong, I DO) I just want hate to stop in general. Love everyone. Always

Oh How I Wish My Life Could Be, Zero Gravity

I always seem to be tripping myself. Yet I'm also always competing with myself. Well I guess not myself really, but other expectations of me. I'm supposed to be straight A, college bound, future changer of the world. At least according to my Mom. I'm not sure if that is  me anymore though. You see, I've grown up a lot over the summer. Like I said before, I don't act and think like a 14 year old girl. I never have really.

Anyways, back to tripping myself, I have a lot of fears. A fear of speaking my mind, even though I have a big opinion. A fear of asking for help. A horrible fear of failing, and not being good enough. A fear of my GPA slipping, or a B finding it's way onto my report card. I'm afraid of letting go, and being the person I want to be, instead of the "pleasing everyone" kind of girl I am.

I wrote a song yesterday. On the front steps of a church two blocks from my house. I got upset and stormed off. Before i knew it I had a verse and a chorus. Picture a really rocked up tempo in your head.

Whenever I rise above the ground
I always feel myself crashing down
It's this stupid law of physics
That requires a lot of doctors visits

One moment I'm soaring to great heights,
The next I gotta get up and fight
Just once I'd like life to be,
Zero Gravity
Oh
Zero gravity
I'll always wonder as I wander,
But in my heart,
The thought grows fonder
Oh How I wish my life could be,
Zero Gravity

Every Tear Drop Is A Waterfall

I apologize for the depressing posts I've been writing lately. Nothings been going my way as of late, and I've been venting about it all on here. That's not fair. You don't want to read about all of that!

Something I've realized lately, is that no one really sees 100% of me. At school you see 40% of the real Zoey Noel. At home, my family gets about 60%. What's that other 40% NO one sees you ask? Well that's a pure, untouched part of myself that I only see. Those are my thoughts, my unshared dreams, the quick wit and dry humor that doesn't show up on my twitter account or formspring. A part of me, I keep to myself because the world isn't ready for the entire Zoey yet. The only other person who maybe is, is well... my Joe Jonas cut out. He knows all my deep dark secrets.

I think I'm going to share one of those on here now, just because I trust you guys. But if a super judgemental plastic from my school reads this, then I'm screwed. I;m willing to take that risk though.

In my search for the real Zoey Noel, I discovered an odd fact about myself. If I had the pain tolerance, I'd love a tattoo. Not one of those cheesy cliche ones. Not mermaids, eagles, or "mom" hearts. Something that actually means something. Not act of defiance, or a reason to put cool art on my body Song lyrics. A Jonas quote. Words basically. Words are easy, and beautiful. I love to write words, and make something with them. A story. A picture may be worth 1000 words, but 100 words are worth so much more then a picture.

Does that make sense? Of course not! This is Almost O'Hara! Nothing on this website EVER makes sense! That's because I'm writing it, and this is my life.

Peace and blessings,

Stay Classy,

Zoey O'Hara Layne

PS (Like my stage name?)

PSS Do you like the blog title? I dig Coldplay. Did you know they're this generation's Radiohead? :p

I Can't. I'm Sorry, But I Can't

Today is one of those rip your hair out, and then go sob in the corner kind of days. I feel like a horrible person, and I feel sick to my stomach. I hate everything right now. This whole problem is because that title up there ^^^^^ is something I need to tell a person. If he doesn't just fully let go, I can't either. We're not being very fair to each other. If he keeps this up, there will be more days like today. When the guilt builds and builds, and then the dam bursts. I'm  the one left feeling guilty, while he just has heartache. It's a twisted circle I don't think I can stand anymore.

I'm the "you" in this song lyric.  I hurt him, and now whenever I say 'He's my brother! Gross! Incest is wrong you guys!' I twist the knife I put in his heart two years ago just a little bit more.

Maybe I'm over reacting, and he's fines. I know if the situation was reversed, I'd be feeling like that. It's days like today when I need an older sister to talk to, instead of a friend who's advice is, "Just go out with him and live happily ever after" (Obviously, she doesn't understand that the feeling isn't mutual)

I Want Your Lifejacket in Love

Greg Garbowsky is engaged to the beautiful and talented Paris Carney. I am seriously, so happy for them. I LOVE Paris' music so much, and I love Greg's music too. Basically, I love both of these people very much. Greg has always felt like my distant older brother. I don't really know why. He just has. Two people I love, in love. I'm so happy for them both, and I wish them the best. A happy life together and all of that.

Paris Carney fans, and Ocean groves fans should find the humor in this post title. If not you're lost. Sorry.

When Will My Life Begin?

I'm a Disney freak. I LOVE all Disney movies, but my favorite has to be Tangled. it's just so... I don't really know how to describe it! It is my dream to play Rapunzel in the Broadway production of Tangled. I can already sing all of the songs. I would also settle, whoever, for being Rapunzel at Disneyland. It would be equally AMAZING! I'd get to do this everyday!

AHH! I think that would be so cool!

Today, I discover Disney Couture. It's a bunch of really cool collector stuff, with really cool drawings of the Disney princesses. Wondering what I want for my birthday? A Rapunzel doll or a Belle, and pretty much, EVERYTHING ON THAT WEBSITE!

Where Are We?

Yesterday, my family decided to take a 45 minute drive to Enterprise for the Corn Festival they have every year. I had a feeling it wasn't going to be as much fun as my parents thought it would be.
I was right.

When we get there, we get yelled at by hillbillies about bringing our dog to the park. Then we bring my dog to the park, and the first thing he does is poop. My dad forgot to bring baggies, so we searched the place for any trash we could use to pick it up. We founds something, and after my dad picked it up, we realized there weren't any trash cans near by. So my dad had to put it in the porta-potty. This should 've been our first sign that the day wasn't going as planned.

We decide to bail, and get lunch as this really awesome burger place called Marv's. My mom and I went inside to buy the food, and were told there was a 45 minute wait for takeout. So we left, and decided to buy chips and drinks and stuff at a connivance store down the road. This was our second sign to turn around, and just go home.

Then we went to the lake. I hate the lake, so I sat in the car most of the time and caught up on my reading assignment for English. There was a bee outside that kept bugging my sister and Mom. I decided to go outside and bug them, because my sister and I had gotten in a fight earlier that day. I turned my iPod up full blast and started singing Kleptomaniac by Joe Jonas at the top of my lungs. Then, I went back in the car. Five minutes later, my mom screamed an ran in the car. The bee stung her in  the hand. This was her first bee sting by a live bee. That was our third and final warning, but again we ignored it.

"Let's take the back way home." My dad suggested. We all liked that idea. My dad knew the area pretty well, and we figured he could take us home okay. We were wrong. We drove around all day. We were hopelessly lost. Then, a small cloud came out of nowhere, and it started pouring rain. We has to pull over because it was so muddy we woud've gotten stuck. Then it started to hail, and my parents were getting scared. We were lost. It was pouring rain, and it was going to get dark in three hours.

We had seen tracks on a road a couple miles before, and we decided they must've been ours, so after the rain stopped, we started following the tracks, and we ran into Eugene. "You lost too?" He asked.

"Yeah. We were thinking this was the way back to Enterprise, so that's where we're headed." My dad replied.

"Oh no!" Eugene's wife said quickly. "That leads to a cliff with three cows on the end, and six feet of water underneath."

Our jaws dropped. Where the heck were we!?

Eugene seemed to know where we were, and he said we could follow him. He lead us into Slaughter Creek, and onto the main road. We were safe! Seven hours after leaving the lake, we were safe. It was so strange. If we hadn't have found Eugene, who knows how long we could've been out there.

I'm not a very religious person, despite the fact that I live in Utah. I was so freaked out about the prospect of spending the night in the car in the middle of no where, eating juice boxes and potato chips for dinner that I prayed. That's very out of character for me. I just prayed for us to be guided home safely, and about 15 minutes later we ran into Eugene. That was the first time in my life I've prayed, and gotten an immediate answer.

So that was my crazy adventure to the Corn Festival. And the biggest bummer, WE DIDN'T EVEN BUY ANY CORN!

-Zo

I Feel The Pain All Over My Body

When Joe Jonas sang I'm Sorry earlier this week, i was so excited. The second time I listened to it, I started bawling like a baby and thinking, "Joseph Adam Jonas, when did you start reading my mind?" I can relate directly to every single lyric on that song, which is different for me. I've never felt that before. If the songs about Demi (not that I really care, this is just an example) then I can relate to it in such an extreme way.

I was never a 'Jemi' supporter because I knew exactly what he was doing, the moment they confirmed they were dating. He gave in. Having a best friend that has a crush on you, is a delicate thing to deal with. Especially if the feelings aren't mutual. When I was younger, my guy best friend told me several times that he was sick of being just friend, He was "in love with me" as much as a 5th grader can be in love. Things became so awkward between us, I gave in and decided to try it. I hoped he'd either realize I wasn't right for him, or I would somehow start to feel the same.

Neither of those things happened. And a year later, we were in middle school, and things were changing. Couples were holding hands and hugging, not playing all the time at recess.That's when I knew I couldn't do it. I couldn't keep leading him on. It wasn't fair to either of us. So I broke it off. He pretended he understood, but I know he didn't. He was angry, and hurt.

Things have never been the same between us. There's a small, awkward wall we've both built. I quietly tell him about the guys in my life, and he brags about the girls in his.  At school, I'm known as "the girl who dumped ______ in the sixth grade for a punk ass skater. Which isn't really true.

I can't stand the super Jemi fans, because they remind me of some of my friends that always say I'll end up marrying my guy best friend because deep down we're still in love.  We're not. He's my best friend, and nothing more. I hate when people tell us we should get back together. I don't want too. I love him as a friend. I can't love him the way he might love me.

That's What I Go To School For

Well, school started on Monday. This week has made me sad. My summer is over. Now I have to be in school, with honors classes, no fun electives, and only one special someone who's "What I go to school for." Jonas fans will get the pun. I hate school, because i hate the social aspect of things. I'm shy, and nerdy, and I just have a hard time.

Ugh, I've been such a whiner this week. My poor followers on Twitter has to listen to my rants everyday, and now I'm dumping this junk on my blog readers too.

Sorry the whole v-log thing never worked out. My camera is broken at the moment, so I can't upload pictures or videos. I'm sorry!

Stay Classy

-Zo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JOSEPH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

So, if you couldn't tell, today is Joe Jonas' 22nd birthday! I'm so proud of him, and how far he's come over the past few years. He's no longer the crazy, goofy, adorable 18 year old he was when I became a fan on The Best of Both Worlds tour. There's no more purity rings and skinny jeans (as sad as that is)

He's a grown up now, and he's come such a long way. He's finally telling his side of the story with Fastlife hitting the shelves October 11th. (I know the date changed. I don't want to get into THAT right now though)

I mean look at this!



That was on the tour where I first saw them. He was just barely 18.

This is him now...



So yep, there ya go. Stay classy all.

-Zo

Whoa!

So, I can't believe this blog has over 1,000 page views.  I'm feeling like Nick Jonas right now, blessed! This blog has really just been a venting tool for me, and a way to share my thoughts with my friends. Even though hardly any of my real life friends check this place out. (From what I can gather) Thank you so much! I'm thinking of maybe doing a V-blog later this weekend, just because I can? Okay. i think I'm going too. Before school starts on Monday.  So check back later. And thank you so much! :'D

Stay Classy,

-Zo

You'll Start Rolling Your Eyes As Soon As You Read This Post

Joe Jonas was on George Lopez last night! (See, I told you!)

He was charming, funny, and completely adorable! Anyways, just watch the interviews and see. He was great. Especially during the 'Simplier Times' bit. Oh! And for the record I am NOT the girl who sent them a dead shark. I may seem like  crazy fangirl, but I'm not that crazy!

Enjoy!

They Say the Neon Lights Are Bright...

I LOVE musical theatre. I love everything about musicals. Over the years, I've created a list of musicals, and the roles I want to play in them. I'm in a real musical mood since Nick Jonas is starring in Hairspray this weekend as Link Larkin. He's doing really well, so look it up on Youtube! He's got some great dance moves! ;)

Anyways, here's the list.

Wicked- Elphaba Thropp. Also known as the Wicked Witch of the West.

Chicago- Velma Kelly. A showgirl that murdered her husband and her sister when she caught them together, doin' the "Spread Eagle"

Hairspray- Penny Pingleton. Tracy's best friend, and Seaweed's love interest.

Le Miz- Eponine. In love with Marius, even though he doesn't know it, until her death.

A Very Potter Musical- (Youtube the show, it's hilarious! Darren Criss is amazing.) Draco Malfoy. Watch the play, and you'll see why.

There's more, I just can't really think of them off the top of my head right now.

-Zo

Always

So, last night I went to go see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part II. It was so strange, when it ended. I wasn't on the edge of my seat, wondering what the next movie would have in store. It was over, and it had a really nice ending.

I've never been much of a "Potterhead" really. I like the movies, but I've never gotten to a point where I actually wanted to read the books. I tried a couple times, but I never could do it .Everyone says I'm missing out, but what's the point, now that I know how it ends

While I was watching the movie, and Ron and Hermoine (SP?) had that big kiss in the Chamber of Secrets I cried a little, I'm not gonna lie. I just thought it was so ironic that such a tender moment happened in there. When I saw the second movie, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets I cried because I was so scared. I was probably six or seven when I saw it, so don't think I'm a total wimp. The snake speaking scared the ju-ju-bees out of me. It still makes me shudder a little, even now.

It was weird that a movie franchise that's been so, part of everything for a decade is just... over. I don't know. I'm not that sad about it. It just seems so, strange. Ugh, nevermind. I don't even understand myself.

Peace, Love, Jonas,

Zo

Look At the Stars, Look How They Shine For You

A couple weeks ago, Nick Jonas and The Administration played a show in Canada. Nick did a cover of one of my favorite songs ever, and I ended up bawling in front of my computer when I watched it. Strangely, I don't have the song on my iPod. I never got  around to buying it I guess. If you've heard the song, then you can probably guess what it is, since my favorite line is the title of this post.

Here's the lyrics, and a youtube link to the original, and the NJATA versions.

Yellow, By Coldplay

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow",
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1MwjX4dG72s&ob=av2e
(Original)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CdutrAtXvy0
(NJATA)

Oh, Darlin'

I'm gonna rant/ramble, because that's what blog are for.

Joe Jonas swears. In the words of the late, great, Chris Farley, "La di freakin' dah!". I can guarantee that he's been swearing since started 7th grade. The fact of the matter is, teenage boys swear. 21 year men swear. Most of the population swears! Joe just doesn't do it in public much, since he's connected to Disney.

He's NOT the same goofy, clumsy teenager Jonas fans fell in love with. He's an adult, with adult experiences. He's 21, he drinks, he goes to clubs, and his ring is gone. Big whoop. He's a grown man, and can make his own decisions. No matter how much we miss that goofy teenager, he's not there anymore. Love the Joe that's here right now, or don't at all.

K, I'm done. Bye.

-Zo

Celebrity Crushes

This is a list of male celebrites I find attractive.

1

                                                       Joe Jonas, of course!
2.

                                                        Greg "Garbo" Garbowsky. Bass Player of Ocean Grove

3.


           Wentworth Miller AKA Michael Skofield on Prison Break

4.

                                              Nick Jonas. Gorgeous.

5.


Alex Pettyfer. Enough said.

6.


Amaury Nolasco. Sucre on Prison Break.

That's it. Those are my six. Thank ya! :D

40 Questions

Another blog because I'm so bored!

40 Secrets about yourself.
Be honest no matter what.
Answer these 40 questions. Have fun!!

1- Have you been asked out?
Yeah, a couple times...

2 - Where was your default picture taken?
haha this is for facebook, but i put it on my blog. silly me.

3 - What's your middle name?
Noel. (But it was almost O'Hara. We all knwo that though, right?)

4 - Your current relationship status?
Single

5 - Does your crush like you back?
Maybe. I don't know! it's very complicated!

6 - What is your current mood?
Eh.

8 - What color shirt are you wearing?
Grey. It says Cherry Coke

9 - Missing something?
I miss a lot of things.

10 - If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
These questions are nosy. And yes. Let's just say, I should've said no. *starts to sing the Taylor Swift song*

11 - If you must be an animal for one day, what animal would you be?
A pengstercorn1 I madeit up in art class. Penguin unicron hamster. they live the high life

12 - Ever had a near death experience?
Several. I'm a clumsy, clumsy girl.

13 - Something you do a lot?
I sing and write to a poitn where my singing voice and the clacking of this computer keyboard puts them on edge.

14 - The song stuck in your head?
Should've Said No. Thanks to my answer a few questions back....

15 - Who did you copy and paste this from?
i don't give out names on my blog silly internet :p.

16 - Name someone with the same birthday as you.
what did I just say!?

17 - When was the last time you cried?
Ha! A couple hours ago! Nick Jonas got booed while he was playing short stop last night in a baseball game!

18 - Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Never alone. I still cna't sing foor this one person who asked me too....

19 - If you could have one super power what would it be?
Mind-reading because i want to know what people think about me

20 - What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes, or if they have a sense of humor. that's a big one!

21 - What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Strawberry Frapicino!

22 - What's your biggest secret?
Um, it's a secret stupid internet. Why do you ask me questions that I cannot answer!?

23- What's your favorite color?
purple, light green

24 - Do you still watch kiddie shows or tv shows?
Um, yes! You';re never too old for Spongebob!

25 - What's on your walls?
Posters. Song Lyrics. A giant sticker that looks like Joe Jonas. The usual.

26 - What are you?
A blogger. A writer. A dreamer. A singer. A Stayer. A Slayer (or Joe Hoe, there's debate) A Kevinator.

27 - Do you speak any other language?
 I speak Jonas fan. "I just poned you because I'm so plobnrg! I lodge you because you're from Oklahoma. There are no cars there."

28 - What's your favorite smell?
Lime Coconut.

29 - Describe your life in one word
Epic.

30 - Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Someday. It's on my bucket list. Not joke either. It is!

31 - What are you thinking about right now?
I'm thinking of tons of jonas jokes. that no cars in oklahoma really got me going.

33 - What should you be doing?
nothing. this is my plan for today!

34 - Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
My sister. She said the Jonas Brothers don't put any heart and soul into their music. As you can imagine, I almost killed her.

35 - How often do you talk to God?
Hmm well not as much as we used to in all honesty.

36 - Do you like working in the yard?
No. Bleck,

37 - If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Jonas. haha that would be plobnrg

39 - What is your natural hair color?
that's debatable. some say it's dark blonde, others say it's light brown.

40- What do you want to be when you grow up?
Ha! I used to. Now... I want to be everything.

Like a Bullet Through the Chest....

Today's just one of those days. You know the ones. Where you pour a bowl of cereal, head over to grab the milk, and your out? Yep, That's today.

Anyways, I've been thinking a lot lately. (Insomnia is great for that) I've always known I was different. I'm an outsider. I always have been. I was mostly a loner in elementary school. That is, until fourth grade when I met my best friend, but that's beside the point. Being alone, I think it... matures you in a way. You don't have friends to remind you how a proper third grader thinks, and you begin to drift off into 5ht grade, maybe even sixth grade thoughts. I do that now, only I think it's to a point where I think like an adult.

When I write, my characters are usually in their early 20's. Romance works best at that age, because it can be serious. Also, that's how old the Jonas brothers are, and since I usually write fanfiction, it helps if the girls are the same age as the brother they're paired up with. This, makes me think more like an adult. Or at least, a young adult. It's come top make me realize, my parents your parents, everyone's parents have a love story that started in their 20's. they were young and in love once. Us, as their kids, we're just pieces of a love story.

This has made me see adults more as equals then adults. When I was on vacation, I caught little moments where my parents seemed young and in love again. When I was little, I used to be grossed out if my parents ever kissed in front of me. Now, I don't mind. I realize that they once got butterflies when they looked at each other. Maybe they felt a spark when they first touched. My parent's love story is a love story. They won't tell me all of it, I'm not quite sure why some of the things  I don't know about are being kept from me when I ask. I think their story has more pain then I'm expecting, and that's why. I wish I knew though.

I love writing romance, because love is so fascinating. I've never been in it, but I have had my heart broken. I like to write about the good times, more then I do the bad. I can't help it. I'm a hopeless romantic. I like to think about all the great things that come with falling in love.

This blog's title, is a line form what now sits as my favorite song. Vesper's Goodbye by Nick Jonas and the Administration. The songs just beautiful, and raw.

I see it turning red
like a bullet through, the chest
lay me down to rest
it's a lover's final breath

It's on my list of songs I want to learn to play on piano. And no, don't start getting excited like, "Piano! I didn't know Zoey played piano!" because I don't. I took a couple lessons when I was younger so I know the basics. I can't read music at all. I play by ear. I teach myself on youtube. By ear. It's really hard, but hey, Paul McCartney can't read music, so eat that society!

Your thoughts are always welcome!

-Zo

Again People?

Stop! Just stop! I can't belive some of the things Jonas fans are saying! Get it together people! Today we should be supporting Joe! it's his second concert ever! But are we? No! A bunch of fans started the day hating on him because of a T-SHIRT and now because he went to a bar with a girl. Puh-lease. That shirt is ugly, yes. But lay off. He's 21 years old. That's old enough to drink, so get over the fact that he drinks. Look at the girl in the picture next to him. How do you think she feels? She obvoisly doens't want to be seen. Stop saying they're a couple. How do you know? This is the first time we've seeen her. She could just be a friend, that got together with Joe that night to have a drink. Back off and support him. He's a big boy. He's  person. Don't forget that.

-Zo

Road Trip!

So my family just got back from vacation, and I took some pretty great pictures. I like photography, and I wish I was better at it. I think I got some pretty decent shots though! Enjoy my amateur photography! 

I like this one because I thought it was a cool view of Pasadena, and I like that I got it through the shutters

This one is one of my favorites. It was my view forever, and I caught the Hollywood sign inside

I wanna sing there someday.

LA temple! The Moroni on that thing is HUGE!

The room key & my writing

This store was the bomb.

If you're wondering what to get me for Christmas...

I love how this picture came out. Necklace+seatbelt+t-shirt= beauty


Those are the highlights! Now if only my favorite photographer, Rob Hoffman would tell me what he thought.

Fan Fiction!

This post is for the people who read my fan fiction! :D Ever wonder what the cover of Benny's Camera would look like if it was a book? This!

What about Karlee J?

                                         (This banner wasn't made by me, but the fabulous, Sarah! Also known as purplecow919 on th JBFA. All credit goes to her!)

My Life As The Comic Relief! ( I know her hair's not the right color, but it was really hard to find on google!)

This last one is only read by one person. You know who you are! ;)

So whaddaya think? Tell me bellow!

A Glass Half Shattered

Another book review! I just finished Tempo Change by Barbara Hall. It's about 16 year old Blanche Kelly, who's dad was a famous indie rock star in the 90's. He left when she was six, to go find himself. Her mother was never the same after he left, and tried to erase all things not normal about their family to try to forget him. She joined AA and cleaned up her act. Moved to Santa Monica and got Blanche into a nice private school.

All of that horrifies Blanche. She has her father, Duncan Kelly on a pedestal. He can do no wrong. His leaving was all her mothers fault. He was an artist! He felt trapped and didn't know what to do about it. Her mom didn't try hard enough to keep him around. She was suffocating him.

Music is in Blanche's blood, and soon she starts her own band called the Fringers. (Since she lives on the fringe of normal people, much like myself) They rise in the ranks and end up being asked to compete at Coachella music festival in the Unsigned Competition. Blanche emails her dad the good news, and he agrees to come. Since her dad's coming, Blanche decides they should end their set with a cover of her dad's most famous song, A Glass Half Shattered.

When people find out that Blanches' dad is THE Duncan Kelly, they ask her to sing A Glass Half Shattered with him onstage. She agrees, because she doesn't want to disappoint her dad, even though it was supposed to be her time to shine. He steals the show, and they end up losing the competition because of it.

Blanche can't believe her father could be so selfish. His only retort, "If you put me on a pedestal, the only thing I can do it tear myself down."  

Another theme in this book that interested me, was Blanche's transition form determined atheist,, to somewhat believer. In the beginning she says that God walked out of her life when Santa did. Slowly though, she realizes that praying and God are a lot like wishes, and luck. I'm really not explaining it very well. It's hard too.

It's Not About the $$$

Book review time! I just read a book that has to be in my top 10! It's called, The Fortunes of Indigo Skye and is about an 18 year old waitress named Indigo, who is as happy as can be. She has a job she loves, an adorable boyfriend, and a family that may be a little crazy, but is filled with love. (Much like my own, in all honesty).

One day. a mysterious new customer starts coming into the diner she works at, and leave her a tip that changes her life forever. A tip for 2.5 MILLION DOLLARS! At first, everything's great. She can buy all sorts of things for the people she loves. Soon though, the money starts to change her just like everyone warned. She begins to feel... powerful. Like she deserves to be treated better because of it. She starts to be come like every other stuck up person with lots of money. Finally, she snaps out of it though, and realizes her family is much more important than the money.

I LOVED this book because I loved Indigo. She is amazing, sarcastic, witty, and she thinks just like me! I love her, and wish she was a real person! Everyone needs to read this book. I'm telling you, it will change your life!

Fun Facts!

-I've always wanted to say, "Hi, I'm Zoey! And you're watching Disney Channel!"
-I have 83 Jonas Brothers posters in all
-I love Joe Jonas, but have more in common with Nick
-I LOVE to read!
-Demi Lovato is an inspiration.
-I have many deep, dark secrets
-I'm 5"3
-Joe Jonas is 5"8
-I like making lists!
-I'm a total insomniac!

Maybe This...

I think this summarizes what I was saying earlier better. I'm part of a family. I'm one of the people who was blessed with a heart open to the three boys from New Jersey that have changed so many lives. I'm a Jonas Brothers fan, and I don't care what YOU think.

This is Me!

I am a Jonas Head. A Jonatic. I'm a Kevinator (Kevin Jonas Fan), a Stayer (Nick Jonas Fan), and last but not least, a Joe Hoe (That one speaks for itself. Joe Jonas fan...)

I do not care what you think about that! This is me! I have been a Jonas Head since I was 10 years old. It was completely by chance. I went to that concert to see Hannah Montana, but I came out in love with three boys from New Jersey.

They taught me a lot about myself. When people think of the Jonas Brothers, they think of Disney pop and decide not to listen. They hear the music, they just don't listen to it. The don't understand that 'A Little Bit Longer' is an amazing, emotional piano piece about Nick's struggle with Type 1 Diabetes since the age of 13. They don't know how much the lyrics from 'Don't Speak' speak to me!

There's a lot that you don't notice
When you read between the lines
The future's out of focus
And blinded by the light
It's a hope for all the hopeless
In the worst of trying times
I resort to being speechless
So I'll avoid the lines! 

The picture above is from a great blog that ALL Jonas Heads should check out.

 http://whatjobrofansdo.tumblr.com/

They are NOT just a boy band. They actually have great music that has touched lives. Think about it for a minute. Have your heard their music, or have you listened to it?

                                                                 (Rose Garden. It made me cry)

                                                                  (A fun song)

I Used To Be Afraid of Letting Go, the Fragile Part of Me

I completely forgot to do my monthly ramble for May! I guess I'll do it now though. Better late then never! :D

I think it's strange how certain things seem to trigger memories that don't have anything to do with those memories, yet have everything to do with them. Like eating a cupcake with chocolate frosting, and remember sleepovers with your grandmother eating gram crackers with frosting on top and watching movies. Or reading a story that hits close to home enough that it makes you cry, even when it has NOTHING to do with what you're crying about. 

Do you ever feel... broken? That's how I've been feeling a lot lately. I don't know how to explain it. I'm not depressed or anything. I'm actually pretty happy for the most part. Yet I still feel... I don't know how I feel.

Is this making any sense? Sometimes I wonder why I even write thing kind of stuff  on here. So my friends can read about what a wreck I am? No thanks! But I still do it! You're probably reading this right now thinking, "Wow, I had no idea Zoey was such a nut job. She should invest in a therapist." or something similar to that. You know it's true.

The title to this ramble fits it perfectly, didn't you think? It's my favorite line from See No More, which I think I've talked about a lot on here lately.

-Zo

I Don't Wanna See No More!

So Joe Jonas has officially started his solo career! It took a few listens, but I actually kind of like the song! It's very... mainstream I guess is a good word to use. Definitely something that could make it on the top 40 list. It's not my favorite, but I'm being supportive because that's what Jonas fans to!

I really need some Jonas friends to hang out with/facebook. It's pretty lonely being the only Jonas Brothers fan in your whole town possibly! I need to get better at being friendly to fans at concerts. Maybe I'll end up with a Jonas friend I can hang out with.

Blogging cuz I'm bored,

-Zo

All To Home

Time for a book review! I haven't done one of those in awhile! I just read a really, really great book called Waiting For Normal by Leslie Conner.

The books' about 12 year old Addie, who live in a trailer with her careless mother, who she calls, Mommers. Mommers just got a divorce from Addie's very nice and caring step dad, Dwight. Addie misses Dwight and her two half sisters. Brynna and Katie. Mommers is NOT a good parent. She leaves home for days at a time on "business trips" The book never says what she's doing, but I have a pretty good idea.

Addie's very optimistic, and sweet. She always thinks about the first time Mommers left when she and Dwight had first gotten divorced.  She was nine, and was alone alone with four year old Brynna, and one year old Katie for THREE days. She called Dwight, not sure what to do, and ever since he little sisters aren't allowed to come visit very often. She thinks she did something wrong because she doesn't get to see her sisters anymore. She doesn't know what a good, brave thing she did.

That hit close to home. I wasn't like, abandoned like Addie was, but I did have an incident as a child when I didn't know what to do, and calling and asking for help changed things dramatically. I don't like to talk about it. Only people really close to me know that story. I only tell it to people I trust. Unfortunately, I trusted someone with that story a year ago, and they didn't react in a good way. I'm even more careful now.

It all ends up okay though. Addie ends up living with Dwight and her sisters, while Mommers ends up in jail, pregnant and alone. I feel bad for Mommers, but then I don't. She brought everything on herself. The worst part is, she didn't know she was doing anything wrong.

All in all, it's a really great book. I highly recommend it! Thanks for reading, and leave a comment below! Tell me what you think!

-Zo

The Best Things About Summer

*I have not worn makeup in five days

*I spend forever getting my creativity on in my journal!

*S'mores in the backyard 'till you puke!

*Girls Camp!

*Just thinking about the beach...

*Watching your friends social lives from afar on facebook cuz you have don't have one but need one!

*Thinking about all the mistakes you make last year, and how you can fix them next year

*Getting a sunburn all over you're back cuz you were writing instead of swimming at the lake :/

*Going to the library and loading up on books

*Waking up noon because you CAN!

*Stalking  Joe Jonas' facebook page because summer 2011 is the Summer of Joe J!

*Going to concerts and going deaf

*Having weird dreams about the guy you like and being really creeped out by how much often they occur

*Watching reruns of Pysch on Netflix until you know the theme song by heart.

 *Drooling over Wentworth Miller while you also watch Prison Break on Netflix

                                      (Hottest prisoner on that show!)
*Staying up late and night and writing on your blog because summer's when your insomnia comes out to play!

*Ben& Jerry's Milk & Cookies ice cream

*Sitting in a hammock, drinking an ice cold Pepsi with a great book.

Story Anyone?

No, I'm not going to tell you my cat story. I'll save that for later. :) I'm going to tell you a little bit about my recent delve into the wonderful world of fanfiction. Fanfiction is just what it sounds like. Fans writing fictional stories about a certain topic. They're written about books, TV shows, and movies too. It's also written about celebrities and band. That's the kind I write. I write romance novels and short stories about the Jonas Brothers. I know it sounds silly, but it's a lot of fun. I've got one finished romance novel under my belt, and several short stories. Maybe I'll post a short story here for you guys sometimes.

And a little side note, I was wondering who actually reads this thing? I have over 500 page views, and I only know for sure a few people that have checked it out. Leave comments and tell me what you think! Let me know what you want to see on here this summer! Original songs? Short stories? The cat story? Let me know! I want to hear your suggestions. So leave a comment down bellow telling me what you think about the blog so far and what you want more off.

-Zo

The Begining of the End, or the End of the Begining?

Well, the school year's pretty much up. It makes me sad, and makes me happy. I'm sad this year ended with so many missed opportunities and regrets. I'm glad it's ending on a high note, and I have high hopes for summer. I'm also really scared, because next year's when it all starts to count. Not just on college applications, but in life. Growing up scares me. Sometimes I wish I was the little Jonas obsessed 5th grader who played four square and knew she was going to marry Joe Jonas, the craziest, hottest singer on the planet. I'm not her anymore though. I'm the shy, girl who talks to much about the Jonas Brothers even though everyone got over them a year ago. I'm the girl who has strange, crazy stories because she comes from a different background then most of her friends. I'm the girl who writes romance novels, and can do a pretty impressive Irish accent. I'm scared because it seems like it happened way too fast. Maybe it's just me, I don't know. That's just how I feel.

You're going to be hearing a LOT from me this summer, because when I get bored, I write. I hope you're in for some crazy, funny, and  sometimes even painful stories. This is gonna be a summer to remember, hopefully. Check back daily maybe, I might get that bored. Have a wonderful summer, I'll try to have one too.

-Zo

Fast Life

Have you ever been so excited for something, and waited so long for it, that you're actually sort of afraid of it happening? It's like that for me with Joe Jonas' solo album. I know, it's totally lame, but whatever. It's true. He's been teasing us, talking about how excited he is for it to come out. The first single, See No More (which he co-wrote with Chris Brown) hits the radio June 3rd. I'm totally terrified. I've built it up in my head so much, I'm scared I won't like it. What then? Then his whole solo album, Fast Life comes out September 6th. What if I don't like ANYTHING about his solo career? What will I do then?

Gus Don't Be A....

Well, I'm super bored so I'm going to review a TV show. It's a program on USA called Psych. The shows about a man named Shawn Spencer who was trained by his father at a very young age to become a cop, so he has "heighten observational skills" Do get himself out of being arrested he tells the police he's a psychic and can help the,m solve cases. Chief Vick is skeptical at first, but pretty soon Shawn and his best friend Burton "Gus" Gustor are solving crime like nobodies business.

                                                                                              (Shawn and Gus)

The show has all sorts of great characters and Shawn has wonder catch phrases. I think I quote Shawn Spencer at least twice a day. The most often used catch phrases are, "Gus don't be a...." usually followed by something completely unrelated to the subject like "Gus, don't be a gooey chocolate chip cookie" Another great one, "My name is Shawn Spencer and this is my associate...." Again fill in the blank with something random like, Galileo Humpkins.And off course, the hidden pineapple. There's usually one in every show, since they're Shawn's favorite fruit. He usually gives them out as gifts saying, "Are you a fan of delicious flavor?" Not to mention Shawn's constant 80's references that are just awesome.

My favorite character besides Shawn and Gus has to be Detective Carlton Lassider or, Lassie to Shawn and Gus. He's a Civil  War buff that loves to whip out his gun.

                                                                           (Lassie)


 Lassie quotes are the best by far, because they're so insane and awful it's hilarious. He has a whole bit about possibly shooting a cat that I wish I could find on the Internet but can't! Here's a good bit though.

Shawn: Collecting donation's for the policeman's ball ,Lassie?"

Lassie: We don't have balls, Spencer!

Shawn: I honestly have no response to that....

All in all, it's a great show. Check it out sometime.