Muchness

"You've lost your muchness."

""My, muchness?"

"Yes! You were much muchier the first time!"

That's what the Mad Hatter said to Alice in the new Alice in Wonderland movie. I was thinking about that a lot last night. How, I've lost MY muchness. A year ago, I was much muchier. I think I've lost some of myself, some of what made me myself. I started hanging out with new people this school year. I was hoping I'd be more of myself with them. I'm actually less. I just want my muchness back! I want to be crazy, and off the wall. I'm sick of standing there, being quiet because I have no way to contribute to the conversation. I have a hard time relating to semi normal people I guess. And they have a hard rime relating to my quirky family and habits. I need to get my muchness back...